i am coming up to the end of the first year. I am thinking - 'whats the point' this thing is driving me insane. Its saturday and i am in the lab - trying to do my 9month report... without the help of my supervisors... ITS JUST LIKE AGRHHHHHHHHHHHHH why should i care. Alot fo my time is on this phd - i am in specialist groups, i go to networking events - this thing is driving me insane - and I STILL KNOW NOTHING.
And now they wantus to write a report of 4,000 words?!!?!/ how can u do one years worth of work in 4000 words? I am going insane. I truely am. My memory is going - am getting bored. AGRGH AGRH AGRH
WHATS THE POINT?!?!?!!? I Have nothing to show for this year!
Is it normal to feel like this almost at the end of ur first year?!

Just image what it will be like at the end of your PhD in 100,000 words.

Sorry to hear you are having such a stressful day! Working on Saturdays sucks. I am struggling with that too. I badly want this finished I just don't want to / can't get into the right frame of mind to do it.
For most people the 1st year report is the first stressful milestone. I remember the pressure I felt for my first year report. As a result I wrote a huge document (20 thousand words) most of which I have now cut out. It was completely over the top, mostly irrelevant but I suppose it helped my thinking at the time.

I have found the longer I've spent on the PhD the less I feel I know, although I think I *must* know more (not sure if that makes sense). I am now trying to revise what I have written and all I can see is inconsistency and gaps I hope no one will notice! Just do your best, you can always develop it later, and hopefully you will get some useful feedback.

i dont really think the 9month report is driving me insane, i think its just everything! I am just sick of it - i seem to be obsessed with my phd topic... are you guys the same?