Hi all,

Trying to find some support and advice here because I'm tired of annoying my parents an boyfriend with my endless complaints.
I'm currently in the last year of my PhD, and my supervisor and me agreed on a submission deadline at the end of june.
Still have an awfull lot to write, but I'm totally blocked by fear and panic since some weeks.
I just have the feeling there is way too much information I still have to process, and I have no idea how to start or organise these final chapters. Going to talk to my supervisor today, but I'm very afraid he will say I'm just lazy and mentally not able to do this (which is actually indeed the case). I was in the exact same situation when I was finishing my master thesis and I just can't believe that I put myself into this situation again. I'm just so afraid to crash. I have quite some things to look forward to: my first real time of and holiday after years in July, getting maried in March 2018, and possible funding for a postdoc from January 2018 on. But instead of finding motivation in those things, it feels like I'm drifting further and further away from my future life.. On the other hand, I can't concentrate on my PhD at all and I'm wasting very precious time...

Sorry for all these complaints, just really don't know what to do anymore.