I found this just in time for my defense. I have three days until Wednesday morning. I plan to re-read my thesis and major articles around the topic. I am still struggling about my presentation though... I changed the outline three times then my supervisor changed two more times, and now I am confused a little. But probably will be okay. A friend of mine told me to have some definitions handy just in case. But it can go so wide.. I don't even know which terms I should look at. I guess, all of this part of a regular anxiety... Any suggestions?

Thank you Pjlu, and chickpea for your comments. I appreciate your input. It makes me feel good to know someone else in some other part of the world going through similar things, and yes I will listen to your advice.

I used to run, but since December I am sitting and trying just to finish this thing but finally this week I began to walk again for long distances to gain back my fitness. I think walking is going to make me feel better. I now have the first three chapters with my supervisor's comment's on it, and a few days to finish it. I began to dig into editing again. It feels like he put the same immense amount of comments, but for a reason this time I can do more of it less time, which makes me feel good. Only interesting thing I am making spelling mistakes in both my native language and in English since last week, which I never did to this extent before. I think it is tiredness. But well grammar checkers are for this, right? Well, I better go back to work because my final ever deadline (if I want to graduate this June) is Wednesday, and my supervisor is going to give the rest of it tomorrow, I better be done with the part I have today. Will let you know how that goes. I hope it will go well for you too.

Hi everybody,

I am at the end of my fifth year and send in the second draft to my supervisor, but as I was expecting his comments, I found myself in an unexpectedly low mood. I am pursuing a music composition Ph.D., and it had two components. First was the composition and its performance, I completed the composition at the beginning of June and editing the score at the beginning of December, and the performance was on February 3rd. It was awesome and successful. The second is the paper, explaining the research and creation processes and the technical details of the composition, which is the main body of the dissertation and I am writing this document for almost 8-9 months now. I am very close, but after the performance, I feel like I am done the main thing. It is much harder to sit and edit and refine the final paper now, and I must be done with the defense and corrections by April 15. As I was waiting for my supervisors latest comments, I am more anxious than ever before, and I realised that I stopped doing many things I have done before such as taking a walk or taking care of myself and my family.

I feel like every time it takes longer to focus and get into the hard working mood. I am done with this project, but I am not done with it. You know what I mean, right?

Does anyone have any suggestions for me? How can I pull everything together for the final stages? Any boosters? Should I take more vitamin B? Begin to go to the gym again?

Cheers!