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Thread: Dealing with generalised anxiety disorder/depression at the start of PhD

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21-Sep-19, 03:49
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posted about 2 months ago
Hi!

Sorry for the slow reply but thank you again so much for the reply! I've read it numerous times over the past couple weeks and it's helped a bunch!

The first paragraph didnt come across as undermining at all! It's very difficult to remember in the darker moments but all of this has happened in such a short space of time- It's only been about 3 and a half months! In which time I have gone as low as I ever have... But that means that it can also pass and be back to normal within another 3 months!

The ticking over thing is very annoying. Sometimes I wake up and am stressed about a tiny detail in a potential experiment and then that's the tone set for the day!

In terms of the actual phd I have kind of been thrown in at the deep end a bit, or at least that's what a lot of people have been telling me! I had to do an ethics application as the first thing I did (I actually had to do that before I had even officially enrolled...), and now I am planning experiments, and the only reason they haven't started yet is because there was a delay in a chemical I need being delivered.
But the battle with anxiety and depression has also been exhausting so it's been a bit all over the place so far in terms of going in and working. Unfortunately when I do go in I am feeling overwhelmed and lost still and this causes more anxiety! Bit of a vicious cycle!

Thanks again for the reply :)

Thread: Dealing with generalised anxiety disorder/depression at the start of PhD

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11-Sep-19, 03:18
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Hi,

Cheers for the reply!

Yeah I completely agree. I was close to packing it all in and flying home a few weeks ago when I was at my lowest, and now I look at that and think it would have been a mistake, so I should definitely wait longer and see.
I guess the problem is getting myself into a good enough headspace where I can think clearly and make a balanced decision because it currently feels like a daily battle to do anything!
It's crazy, I had never experienced mental health issues before (not properly at least) and I just didnt think it would happen to me and be this all-consuming!

I have some strategies- I love football and whenever I play I find it helps. Also running. Watching movies and stuff can distract me but often I find I'm still ticking over in my head worrying about stuff.
Would you have any recommendations?

I also think that I'm weirdly causing a lot of the stress myself- I have got myself into such a negative head space regarding the course that I'm resigned to having to quit, and quitting brings with it a lot of stress in terms of leaving the country and my girlfriend etc. But if I can get out of the rut and try to enjoy the phd (or at least give it a chance!) then I woudnt have all these other stresses!

Again, thanks for the reply! :)

Thread: Dealing with generalised anxiety disorder/depression at the start of PhD

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10-Sep-19, 01:44
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posted about 2 months ago
Hi,

At the end of June I moved to the other side of the world to start my PhD. I found the move a lot harder than I thought it would be (I have lived abroad multiple times before), and missed my family and sorting out accomodation was a nightmare. I also started my PhD while I hadn't really settled- I was going in and having to do enrolment/ethics etc and then sleeping on people's couches for the first few weeks.
All of this got to me and I was feeling incredibly anxious and got into a really bad rut. I took advantage of the university counselling service (which I am still using) and am now on anti-depressants after the doctor diagnosed me with generalised anxiety disorder (GAD) and depression. I should point out I have had mental health issues beforehand but nowhere near to this extent.

I am definitely better than I was, and a good friend of mine also recently moved here so that has helped a lot. However I am now questioning my whole decision to move here and start the course. It's got me into such a bad place already, and although my peers and a lot of people I've spoken to have said it's normal to feel overwhelmed/lost etc. at the start of the PhD (I'm still only 2/3 months in), I just can't believe how bad I feel. I'm struggling to sleep because the anxiety is so bad and it's far from ideal being on medication!
The thing is, I'm not sure whether it's because I'm in a bad headspace that I'm doubting my decision, or whether it's the PhD that is just causing me all this stress. To add to the mix, if I did drop out I would have to leave the country, which means leaving my friend who moved here (mostly to live with me), and also my girlfriend.

Just wondering if anyone has any advice or similar stories that may help?
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