I'm thinking of leaving my masters degree. I have currently done enough to earn a PGDip.

It has been a bad experience. I have been working on it all year and the isolation (in addition to) the workload has left me feeling absolutely miserable. I have the dissertation left to do which is 10,000 words. I have a deadline of May 2019.

I feel like I cannot stomach another day working on this course and I want a job. I have no desire to work in the (nuclear) industry and I'm 30 now, so really need to focus on getting work. I would like a family one day. I feel like I am going nowhere. My supervisor also doesn't know how to use the software program, so I have no idea what I am doing. I can write the literature review and scientific basics, but when it comes to actually simulating the problem at hand I have no idea.

My motivations to do this course were silly. I was unemployed and they offered a scholarship and bursary due to my first class bachelors in physics. I would have to return the bursary back if I quit, although I have not spent it.

I already had depression before starting the course and it's made things worse. I told my parents last week that it had made me suicidal, which they were obviously shocked to hear. I am one of those people who likes to focus when studying, so I'm not sure if I am able to juggle getting a job whilst finishing this thing off. It is playing on my mind.

I just don't know what to do. I could push through for the few months and (try) to self-teach, but it's all playing on my mind and I'm not sure the stress is worth it considering I have no desire to work in the industry. I was very motivated when doing my undergraduate degree, but I had my year group to talk to. I'm alone on this masters.