Update on Having Thoughts of Death

H

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Hi all - I posted very early January about my problems. I'm pleased to say that I just got out of an intensive session with my supervisor on the draft and he thinks that my work ranges from "okay" to "very good and interesting"...with most work needed on the introduction WHICH IS JUST FINE BY ME! My submit date is still March 31 but my supervisor has told me that he's willing to 'take the bullet', ie, give me extra time by telling admin that he's the one holding things up. He's been like that the whole way through - for which I'll be eternally grateful - and has always been supportive of me if not so much of my work. I asked in a quavering voice, "So you think it has a chance of passing?" and he said "Oh, yes," sounding highly surprised I would even ask. :-s


Still having panic attacks and nightmares on occasion, but much less frequent. Not getting drunk every night. Things are looking up! I might be able to make it through all this after all!

K

Hey Helen, its great to hear that things have been picking up for you. You've done so well to battle on through it and keep going, so big congrats on that. Hope things keep on getting better and better- glad to hear your supervisor is being supportive too! Good luck finishing it off, KB

B

Kudos!
Pity you didn't have a dictaphone with ya to record that, but keep that memory in the head and remember it when you feel the panic rising.
Can't really comment on the drink situation, but yeah, if you were getting razzled most nights, f**k it and get this thing finished. I would say that for all the artificial highs of booze, it was nothing near hearing that your work is good. It is great to find things that somehow make us realise that we are intrinsically worth something (forgive sounding like a preacher, but we all have that problem a bit).
Now get back to work :p

B

Just a quick reply to say I'm really pleased things are looking up for you, and wish you all the best with finishing off the thesis. You can do it!

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I reckon you will Helen. Good luck with all the final processes as well; but I'm guessing for your innate talent and hard work will get you through, so the luck factor is merely an extra. Cheers

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