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I have been miserable since two years; and i find myself being unhappy, angry, weak, reluctant, and so on..... only question that i have is; if there is no purpose of individual being alive then why they have to live in the first place? why there are so much of higher academic degrees, if there is no purpose after completing degree? if any person got nothing to do in life then why they are born? sometime i think its my parents mistakes, or gods will or may be due to sin or something else? my family are all in good shape; and me wrapped in a dark purple with horrible wall painted room; trying to defend myself for all this that i have now; pretend to be working voraciously in a newly bought lenevo flex 2 laptop; mobile and other gadgets; as of just waiting for regret messages or emails or thinking out loud inside for not receiving any acknowledgement from job i applied so far. yeah i feel afraid what if i don't get a job anymore? questioning myself whether i still belong here or not and i am a complete loser; broke; heartless; polluter; invader; greedy and jealous on others achievements without realizing how much sorry that your parents and family need to hear from you? i am lost; for what reasons that i am not being hired or not being make money and support family and all? i seek answers for all those dilemma's of mine. I seriously need a proper professional jobs like all of you.

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I am sorry to hear of your troubles. Do your friends and family know how you are feeling. Do you have access to other sources of support such as a counsellor?

It is hard to offer you specific advice on finding a job without knowing what you studied and what kind of work you are looking for. Can you tell us more about that?

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Sickranbing, it is good that you can express your anger and concerns for the future. It is pretty normal to feel disappointed and at loss about what to do next, when you get rejections etc. But the good thing is that you are in charge! Some people get great cards to play with, others have to struggle to achieve their goals, but ultimately it is you that play the game. You can decide the direction you want to take and how much of your energy, time and effort you want to invest into building up your future. You can have good moments and bad moments, but in the big scheme of things this is just that, one moment. So, do not lose heart.

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