Was diverted due to political circumstances in my country- was brilliant - academic school to 18 - did badly at scientific A levels away from home, depressed (little money ) - had to work to live! - started evening course (Biology) at Birkbeck demanding job husband - final year had baby!- result wasdisasterous 3rd class - One yr post grad in teaching - did not work well - have good brain & speak a number of languages well - mad enthusiasm to pick up the pieces and be the top academic student once and fulfill what I should have been acomplishing if all had been well

Don't look back and keep trying. You obviously know where and what you did wrong and the only thing you can do now is to build on that. It will be difficult to get accepted into future courses etc so it may be worth doing some short term work based around your chosen area in order to build up some experience. Either that or 'wipe the slate clean' and start from the bottom!