Hi Dear Friends
I am Alice 30 years old, It is a long time that I suffer from OCD but it in recent years dealing with it has become easier.
I was a very intelligent and hardworking student till start of my universities school that OCD showed itself in my life. After taking medicines i never could having that concentration I had before. I could not study alone and always prefered studying with my friends and studying in libraries to overcome lack of concentration and get rid of cycling thoughts. I hadnt concentration in classes but studying short time just before exam helped me to pass courses. In my Master I didnt study well either but just for my final thesis I put all my effort( for 3 months) and it resulted in good result.
I can say I can do short time tasks well with good result
I finished my undergraduate and Master 5 years ago and after that I started working as Network administrator but as I was thinking I have more abilities I applied for PHD and I could get admission with good scholarship in Canada.
I had too much doubt doing that because I was afraid of concentration but I started it last semester. At first I put all my efforts reading articles and as I had less concentration I had to put more time. During this semester I had lots of stress always thinking I dont know what to do( I put time but it hadnt positive results) because of it I changed my supervisor and started another subject at first it was good but after a while again I had lots of stress I get a leave for previous semester and now I dont know if I continue my PHD or it doesnt worth this much of stress.....
I just have fear of it....Actually as a network administrator I was satisfied with my work because it didnt need that much concentration. Know I am thinking perhaps getting certificates in my job and becoming professional be better for me as it needs less conentrations ....
I dont feel well quiting PHD because of OCD...
Please help me ....