Hi there,

I just need somewhere to rant and gain a perspective on things.

Some background - I'd developed quite bad anxiety problems during my PhD and had to take some time out to try and cope with them. Somehow I managed to submit in January and vivaed in February. My outcome was Major amendments and I was given 6 months to do them.

The list of corrections was quite vague and said things along the lines of "improve your explanation of your contribution to knowledge through the thesis" and "make your use of voice, person, punctuation, etc more consistent throughout". They recommended some specific areas to improve not related to those "Big" points which they didn't recommend any particular parts in my thesis to improve.

I've got just over 6 weeks left now and I've been working on them practically every evening and at weekends after my 9-5 job. I'm at a stage where I feel like I'm rewriting my corrections over and over again because I don't know at what point , enough is enough. My supervisor thought my thesis was fine in the first place and so I just feel like I'm bashing my head against a brick wall. I've become so paralysed at the thought of failing my corrections that I',m back to where I was during my PhD, having severe anxiety issues and panic attacks but feeling very stuck too. The fact that I just feel like I have no downtime to myself ever is really getting me down.

I dunno if anyone has any ideas to try and help? I'm just so very sick of this constant doubting of myself and how all this time and effort could all be for naught. I'm so scared at the moment and I just don't know how much more I can take. I'm particularly nervous because my examiner was quite anally retentive and some of the comments from the viva felt ridiculous - even the internal said so .

Sorry for rambling