Thanks for your reply. Thats a good point MichaelA. I ofcourse really really really want to do well... But it is hard to get rid of the insecurity sometimes. I have struggeled through my PhD large parts without a supervisor, and that makes me wonder if i did everything right. Today is a better day than yesterday though. More positive thoughts and lots of motivation.

Thanks for your reply! How sweet of you to take the time to help out! I feel much better, and will keep working hard. The negative thoughts are just so time consuming and paralyzing. Hopefully I can ward them off from now on. Congratulations on your degree!

This might sound crazy, but my defense is a few months away and all I can feel is fear. I somehow had this picture in my head that when you are almost done, you would have this feeling of wisdom, calm and confidence. At least to some level... All I can feel is fear. Fear of having made mistakes. Fear of being wrong. I actually wake up in the middle of the night sweating, with a pounding heart, thinking that my reasearch is just shit on every level and that it might all be wrong. Does anyone feel the same way? Any advice?
Thanks,
june