Hi - Thanks for the reply and yes it is good to know that I am not alone in my frustration! It is just a case of sitting down and cracking on with it ...but I can relate to your 'I am doing my PhD in my head' ....I have written it all and it all makes sense in my head...but when I get to my keyboard I just go blank! :(
I had an email off my supervisor 2 days ago asking me to send her my latest chapter even if it was not finished. As I work on a Tuesday and Wednesday I planned on doing as much as I can today and then sending it off tonight. However, today I get another e-mail saying - I want the completed chapter by Monday! I don't know whether I am coming or going!
So I am going to stick to my main plan and send her what I can today then keep going over the weekend to finish it.

As far as you are concerned you appear to be nearly there - well done! Doing post viva corrections must be so boring and frustrating though! I wish you lots of luck in getting them done and finally putting the PhD to rest ...what a relief that will be!
Best wishes xx

Thanks for taking the time to reply to me and for your words of encouragement and support.
I think the common thread here is to try and write a bit per day. I seem to just think in Chapters and this has what's brought me to a halt.
It's all got a bit too overwhelming but being on this site has definitely helped. It has made me realise that I am not on my own! I wish I have discovered it 2 years ago!

Thanks.

Thank you so much for your reply and for your suggestions. You are right I need to get myself into a better place rather than just
bury my head in the sand and hope this will all go away.
I have decided to write to my supervisors and explain to them that I am not able to meet my monthly deadlines and request a possible suspension.
I hope that this will ease my anxiety a bit and allow me to write at my own pace.

You have given me a lot to think about ....and it is very much appreciated!

OK I am now at the end of my tether and I need to vent before I go mad-der! I do not expect any replies to this post I just need to get things off my chest.
I am now coming to the end of my 5th year of my PhD. Throughout the 5 years I have been teaching part-time (8 hours a week which is hardly part-time) lecturing. At one stage I was teaching at 2 universities (3 hours apart) which was enjoyable but a drain on my time.
During my 3rd year my Dad passed away which really affected me and I ended up in counselling which didn't really help.
As far as the PhD is concerned I started it with such enthusiasm but due to the constant bickering and lack of constructive help of my 2 Supervisors I have felt so frustrated and alone. My main supervisor has not supervised before and her lack of experience has showed.
I have always been able to write quite easily but I am not sure what has happened to me I constantly feel like a failure and that I write like a year 1 undergraduate (no offense to year 1 undergraduates!).
Two years ago I was diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression. The medication has helped a bit. I have also been to see a hypnotherapist which did achieve a temporary 'fix'.
I managed to move back to my home-town 4 months ago as I managed to get a part-time RA post. Even though I have lots of free time which I know would be a luxury for some of the people on this site, I just cannot seem to get into writing mode.
I have now been told I need to submit in December as they need my thesis for next year's RAE. This decision has come from the Head of School who is also my personal tutor. I have started to panic again, my anxiety is back and it just doesn't matter how many times my friends say 'you can do it' I feel that my confidence has been completely zapped.
I really don't want to fail as I don't want to let my family or friends down but I just don't know how to get out of this rut. I don't even have a completed chapter yet ....just bits and pieces that I have thrown together.
I am now being chased by my supervisor to write a chapter a month ......I can't even muster a sentence a day!

Deep down I want to just run away and give up as I need to put my health first .....I am VERY confused, upset and alone. My family don't understand as I am the only one to have achieved a degree ...so they don't get what pressure I am under. They just roll their eyes and say 'just write it'. Unfortunately I now hate my thesis and can't wait to see the back of it.

Apologies for the rant. Just needed to share.