Dear Monkiaa,

Thank you for your kind words, wishing you just the same, strength and health...
I hope you're better now, please follow your own advice, and stay strong as well..

Best wishes xx

Dear tru,

At this juncture, I don't know what I will do next. I guess, I'll have some time to think in the next couple of weeks as I'll be in an out of hospital for few days, and I will be taking a week off. I am sorry to hear that you've been facing the effects of cancer first hand, are you ok now? I hope you've recovered and that everything is going ok for you now?
Thank you for your thoughtful advice, maybe I should actually consider in changing my supervisor, although pm133 is right in one regard:I cannot force people to help when they don't want to.
She's the only expert in our school in the particular filed I've chosen, and will be very difficult (I believe) to change my supervisor under these circumstances.
I will give it some thought, it's still early days, and hopefully things will improve perhaps in the next month of so.If they won't then I will have to do something about it.

Best wishes.

Dear Pm133,



Thank you of for your message. You've been very helpful and I appreciate you honesty.

[quote]Quote From pm133:
You need to approach this in a few ways.

"1) You need to prioritise coming to terms with your illness. To start with you need to stop calling it C and start calling it by its real name. I think this is the primary root of all your other problems. You then need to accept that this illness has consequences for your ability to continue doing things as you have been up to now. You are trying to carry on as though things have not changed. That is going to make things considerably worse for you physically and mentally. There is no way to sugar coat what is happening to you. How you handle this first big task will determine what you do next."

Thanks for being so straight forward, you are right, there is noway to sugar coat what is happening to me. The sooner I face it, and accept what is going on with me, the better. I appreciate your honesty, and perhaps that's why I've chosen to voice my thoughts on a forum, as supposed to talking to the people around me. They won't be honest, and actually try to make me see what's happening and where I'm at, but instead they'll just feel sorry for me. I don't need pity, all I need is some advice that will also act as an wake up call. And your message had that effect on me, and thank you for that.

Hi,

My supervisor knows about my illness, my colleagues don't know and frankly I don't want them to know..My problems stem from both, the shock of my illness and the fact I feel lost, very unproductive and battling to concentrate.
I am trying my best to keep up with deadlines etc, as I refuse to ask for extensions and to be beaten by my lethargy and lack of focus. I am just struggling to digest it all.
I also feel that perhaps I haven't chosen wisely when I picked my supervisor, as in addition to the lack of communication, she doesn't seem to want to help at all.
All the other lecturers offered their help and support, my supervisor told me' well, just focus on your thesis now'.
Perhaps I'm overreacting these days, feeling confused as to whether this Phd is the right thing to considering everything that's going on right now.

Hi all,

So I've decided to voice my fears here because I need some advice. I find it tough to look for it around me, and I don't want people to think that I am looking for pity or that I like to complain and feel sorry for myself.
I've started my Phd this year, and it was all I ever wanted to do. I started tutoring as well, which I really enjoyed, but unfortunately I had to stop giving tutorials, because of my health issues, which makes me really sad.
A couple of weeks back I got some pretty shocking news about my health, which I am finding really tough to digest right now. Although I am young and I didn't expect it, it looks like I am very ill. I am not going to even mention the word, the letter C , the big C, is frightening enough... Now, I am not really in a right place, mentally or physically. All I wanted to do is to start my Phd and 'm feeling very lost at the moment. To preserve my sanity I must go on with my research, however I am really struggling to concentrate these days and to keep up with all my assignments and presentation, not to mention advancing my thesis.
I don't want to take a gap year or to quit my Phd, but equally I feel like I'm letting everyone down. I can't even turn to tell my close ones how I feel, as I am embarrassed by my struggle and my lack of motivation right now.
I guess, I am just shocked about everything, and I feel that nobody can understand my feelings. I feel that my supervisor only cares about my progress about my thesis and not about how I feel. She's not even helpful, and I am wondering if is normal for a supervisor not to make any suggestions about materials, or to give an opinion as to how you should structure your thesis, or any constructive feedback at all????? All I was told was -- you keep on working and come to me if you have any problems. That's how far her support goes,
I also don't really like my colleagues. They are all really self-centred and would never help with any questions. It's just like being in 5th grade again, they are so secretive, and I don't understand why, when we are pursuing complete different topics.
I am also still working a couple of days a week, and I have a child too, so I find everything so intense, and really stressful.
I don't know what to do about my Phd in light of everything that's going on right now. I even feel that I don't like my topic anymore, don't know anymore how I should advance my thesis, where to look for inspiration, I feel unoriginal, I feel lost.
I am sorry for my negative rant, and I don't know what advice I am looking for, I am just really struggling at the moment.

Hello everybody!

I will be starting my PhD this September and by virtue of a teaching scholarship I will be tutoring undergrads in Political Science.

I was wondering of any of you may be willing to share any experiences or tips to help me get a better understanding of upcoming ordeal.

Is it difficult? What should I be expecting? I am not a great public speaker, however I am pretty excited about it?

Any advice, tips or general info will be much appreciated!

Thank you all!