I'm going to the student advisers monday - I wish I could go now 'cos I really need someone to help me this minute
Been trying so much today - trying to write/work on ideas - but I can't think at all, non-functioning brain, think I'm having a breakdown

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That advice was excellent magictime!! Cheers!

The problem I am/was having was I have read about so many paradigms to display Masters/PhD thesis's (Open university practical books etc.) that all the paradigms are competing in my head, and my head is at a point of stasis.



Therefore, its undoing as I am doing it

for some reason small essays are an enigma, I can quite grasp their fundamental purpose / can't get a good grip on them

Our essays relatively short around the 6,000 word mark - the problem with me is my ideas are too multi-layered (filled with paradoxes) and elaborative, (I could write a 100, 000 word essay on my current essay, I need to convey the complex topics and develop them within a tiny space. Therefore, I can't manage to write a simple straight to the point 4,000 word or 6,000 word essay - or should it be really straight to the point? (No room for complexity?)

I then try to compact complex concepts into one sentence, which works, but possibly requires takes a third of the essay.

How can I get a good grade with the essays I've got with 3,000-8,000 word essays?

What method is most appropriate for small essays?

hope your ok bil

living on campus - hate this lonely feeling that comes

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Thanks



I think somewhere along the stress way - sensibility was knocked out - so will look forward to getting that back. I was sensible in undergrad and beginning of postgrad. but with stress mounting/tough situations, I got extremely vulnerable and at over the past year I've been really very vulnerable and just out there vulnerable. I guess that's something I am learning to see, is how vulnerablity has over taken - guess the times will come back for more sensible days again. The feeling of being on a major rollercoaster ride, between me now and me then



You know when you start studying your area, it's all exciting, and you're really into it, really kinda like wow this is for me, really cool (as undergrad, and 2006-postgrad.)- it was really exciting semester 1/2006, "the feeling like you were getting somewhere, the beginning of your career" etc.



now coming through a stressful period (2006-9) of daily nasty occurances, I kinda feel displaced about the work, I'm coming to the end and kinda just like 'what is it', a desolate 'where am I' feeling, like 'where has the time passed' (I'm just trying to pinpoint what I mean, trying to find the appropriate expression). I feel displaced about life in general, who am I, where am I? what am I doing? where am I going? how/what/when/what/why/where is home? how do I start home? where do I start? - in a desolate way (and I'm actually nowhere at the moment)



Think my self-image has disintegrated to (down) - the feeling of who, what, where am I? (like coming out of a time-zone feeling and consequently being no-where, or no-where you know)



Have you ever felt this way? Can you explain it better, I'm not explaining it properly

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I dunno but whatever multiple accounts you have, please just don't answer my questions, your not even answering them - you're just interrogating everything I've said, are you practicing challenging ideas for your phd/are you using these as exercises - it just seems very inappropriate

Ok bye - hope your feeling better soon PhD Bug - and I hope for your own sake, you develop a healthier attitude.
To the enigma of editing - I left out some words - because I was rushing while I was typing - so I cut it out - cos there's no delete. Take care

Edit 2: rushing off to study loads

Edit 3: Bye, later

Edit 4: and once again, long yawn, I don't have depression or acute depression

PhD Bug can you stop answering my questions.

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Well, the doctor said I'm Not suffering from depression - thanks anyways -

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thanks. I'm kinda thinking maybe i should pack it in, leave it behind for good

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maybe, or maybe not? is everything else in your life sorted out? if its for fun, I'd say go for it, but if your going to be intense as I was studying and working around the clock, it takes its toll on your health - life is too short.....then you realize, there's alot of people who'll pull you down, and you'll get alot of elbowing along the way (if you know what I mean - cos some people will try to knock everyone down in the gutter clearing the path for themselves - have experienced it).....then after all your heart,soul, energy into it, it can be a pot-luck thing in the end and this discrediting can be very disheartening.

Or it could work the other way, and you could sail through, three years fly's in...and you might find your supervisor to be excellent...like my current supervisor and also the chair of the department are both excellent lecturers, very kind and very helpful, it is good to have someone to consult with easily...but that is not always the case sometimes I've heard from people in other uni's who's lecturer's went off somewhere else, leaving things hanging, etc...guess you need to make sure the supervisor is easy accessible/practical things too

Students can differ too, some kind and decent - and some very scary what they do (I mean viciously very scary)....(either way: main advice, keep moving - cos you can't hit a moving target)

Take it with a pinch of salt (if that's the phrase), people can be nasty but its the nice ones that count

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Hi PhDBug - has this topic upset you before, when people mention it? I'm sorry if this topic is personal to you. If its an upsetting topic to you, I didnt mean to offend



why are you upset? what is making you fumed by this? and why is it personal to you? why do you express anger? (Ive seen you express anger in other posts by others - you might need to talk to someone)

I was replying to the other user about presentations