Thank you for your kind and honest words.

Seems that I am suffering from manic depression. Went to NHS and the doctor told me that the viva outcome is the reason of me being in such a position.

It's been pretty destructive since I can't even attend interviews for jobs, I am horrified even to go to an interview after the viva experience.

My supervisor is keep telling me to do those major changes (25K+ words) and re-do a viva, but honestly, attending a new viva is giving me nausea just thinking about it...

Hello all,

I have had in May my PhD viva...it went on pretty awful, and ended up in re-submission (for a PhD) with a new viva. After two months, I got the major changes from the external.

In the meantime, I wrote my first (research) book that is relevant with my PhD, more than 220.000 words and will be published on 2019.

However, I feel extremely sad and weak. Most of the times, I actually feel worthless and even suicidal thoughts come in mind.

I don't know if it's worth it to go for another viva. I feel DEVASTATED to say at least, and after all those months...

Hello,

I just had my viva today and the result was appalling...major corrections plus another one viva. I don't know if anyone had any experience of such a result (in a UK university), but I am devastated...I really don't know what to do, I really don't know if it's worth the time to try and come up with a new viva.