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MSc, money and mental health
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Hi all,
I know posts like these are mainly for PhD students but I wanted to share how my MSc has went nothing like I expected. If you read it to the end, well done! :P
I graduated with a 2.2 in Virology (under microbiology) and decided to pursue an MSc in Drug Design and Biomedical Science (at first was just biomed but a lecturer insisted that drug design would be better for job prospects) so I got in easily enough. From that point it's been a downward spiral.
My first assessment was a group project and the others were completely uncooperative, even refusing to use references, so that scored a mid pass. Lecturers kept saying how unsure they were about what level to pitch topics at for everyone came from a different background. For me it felt too fast since I took a gap year. I then ran into money problems since I took up a low pay supermarket job, and found it too hard to study full time and barely have enough food. I took time off, am now studying part time and applying for a bank loan and benefits. But now, I just feel so behind and like a layperson trying to understand very difficult topics whilst everyone else races ahead. The current labs are awful as there are too many students and not enough resources, so end up panicking and unable to write reports under the 3 hours we have per session.
I am seeing a counsellor as I experienced suicidal thoughts, and right now I'm so anxious about not getting the distinction grades I wanted because I cant keep up, they resurfaced. I feel stuck, in terms of money, job prospects if I leave, if I decide to do another course what if I don't get funding or am just not up to MSc level. I procrastinate terribly. My parents are worried about me living in a city I don't like in a rough area.

MSc has been a nightmare, is it truly worth it for a job?

Already have a PhD for next year but I'm really struggling with my current MA course! Self doubt.
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Can you think of why you may be struggling in that particular module? Is the material something you've never studied before?

If you have a final exam or similar, maybe you can talk to an advisor and explain your troubles. Ask other course mates for help if you do not understand certain learning points. It means putting your pride to one side, but to get what you want, you may just have to!
Research is something which is a constant learning curve. With regards to your worries about the MA grades reflecting on PhD work, I wouldn't think so, as long as you enjoy it! But in terms of improvement, seriously get to the reason why you're struggling and ask lecturers or colleagues for advice.

Good luck!

Work/study balance
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Thanks for replying! From what I hear, it's almost always tough for PhD students to find a job....is this changing do you know?

Also, finding a part-time paid lab job.....when I write that it sounds more like something you find at the end of the rainbow.

Work/study balance
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I'm currently studying a part-time MSc in Drug Design and Biomedical Science. I fund most of it through working 18 hours a week at ASDA, but minimum wage does not support living costs much! (Have applied for benefits and Career Loan to help with course costs).
I took a gap year after graduating with a 2.2, a basic job and never looked at my subject during that time. Since starting the MSc, I feel very disconnected from the scientific community, nervous in practical labs and feel like everyone has a better grasp of the modules than I do. Something akin to "Imposter Syndrome" plus heavy procrastination.
I would love to gain experience in a laboratory outside of the course. Paid would be ideal, but I'm getting the impression this is very difficult to obtain.

So no set routine, feel out of place on the course, short of money every month.....would it be worth trying to improve the situation and look for a paid part-time lab job and finish the MSc? Or would employers consider me with just a 2.2?