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Thread: Please help - considering formal complaint against University.

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05-Feb-19, 10:33
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posted about 2 weeks ago
Quote From gemmamurdoch:


my Tweet said: 'Would this be a good time to mention that X institution didn't fund my research on X topic?' and that is all.


FYI :)

Thread: Please help - considering formal complaint against University.

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04-Feb-19, 16:00
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Hi Gemma,

On the basis of what you've written, I would tend to agree with bewildered's post. It's not clear what your complaint would relate to. It doesn't seem like the university has done anything egregious but maybe you could clarify for us. It seems like there have been some instances of miscommunication. Firstly, they didn't inform you that you had a prospective supervisor so you had to rush your application. However, you were presumably already working on this application anyway right, since there was a fixed deadline?

Secondly, the funding thing is really unfortunate and I understand your frustration. I'm not how it works in other places but at my uni, funding decisions were totally up to the discretion of the dept so it doesn't seem weird to me that someone would somehow find 'unadvertised' funding. You are funded now, though, right? (at a different uni)

Why were you uncomfortable speaking to your dissertation supervisor?

In the future, it might be wise to consider what you tweet as you have no idea how someone is going to respond to this type of information in a public forum. You don't want to get a reputation as someone who is bitter or indiscreet.

Thread: Feeling totally defeated

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04-Feb-19, 15:44
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Yes, bewildered, I would tend to agree with you about the competitiveness of academia. I've found it to be the case in other fields too but I'm at least passionate about academia so, for now, it's worth it.

I should clarify my earlier comments about academic friends. To be honest, I have a couple of good academic acquaintances but they live far away and there's only so many times I can send them an email filled with complaining! Also, I at least have my PhD already so I'm reluctant to moan about not having a job when most people I know are still stressed about finishing their degree.

Otherwise, there are lots of my peers about but I find it very difficult to open up to these people for a variety of reasons. Some of them are very competitive and only see you as a 'rival'. I don't have time for people like that. Some are nice but not necessarily interested in making more friends. Unless one of us makes a big effort, meetings are usually quite limited to a quick chat here and there or the occasional coffee. I have a baby too so I can't spend lots of time socialising.

I don't want it to sound like I'm making excuses. This situation is mainly why I'm came online. It's been really helpful just being to express myself here without judgment and also to get some great advice. I will try again though to get in touch with people locally and be more open-minded.

Thread: Feeling totally defeated

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02-Feb-19, 13:33
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Thanks for this, pm133. Yes, you are right, I'm sure I would be happier if I stopped leaning on others for validation. At the moment, I think I'm finding it particularly difficult as my job applications ask about prizes, publications, etc and that makes me really focus on these sorts of things and feel like I'm constantly playing catch-up.

I think I have been underestimated by people in the past due to my appearance and how I talk (not your typical academic) and even though I feel like I've proved myself, I still carry that sense of inferiority forward. I think that's why I get so emotional about these applications, because, in my mind, it's like the final way of proving myself to anyone who might have doubted me. This comes from past experiences before my PhD too...anyway, thank you for the advice and sorry for using you as a therapist! It's just nice to chat to people who get it.

Thread: Pronouncing difficult (and not so difficult) names

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02-Feb-19, 13:22
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I do both, depending on how urgent I feel I need to find out! If I need to say the name during a presentation, I'll try to find out beforehand. To be honest, there are lots of non-native English speakers in my field and hear all sorts of mis-pronunciations of names and words and no-one really minds too much. At least I don't mind, I suppose I can't vouch for everyone else!

Thread: Feeling totally defeated

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01-Feb-19, 11:08
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Hi Tudor, thanks for this lovely message. I have had a short RA job already (6 months, part-time) but have not applied for any others. There have only been a few advertised and they were unsuitable for various reasons.

It's nice to have encouragement from people who understand what it's like to go through this. When I wrote my first post, I was feeling so hopeless but the initial shock has worn off a bit now. I'm still really sad and disappointed but I have to keep plodding along. As pm133 suggested, it is also good to adjust my perspective for the sake of my mental health.

Thread: Feeling totally defeated

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31-Jan-19, 16:12
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Hi bewildered, thanks very much for your reply. That sounds like a sensible plan. Glad it worked out for you.

Thread: Feeling totally defeated

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31-Jan-19, 11:49
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Hi pm133, thanks a lot for this advice. It makes me feel better but it's also a good reminder to keep some perspective.

I've mainly been applying for very general 'humanities' postdocs so I suppose I worry that my subject is a turn-off for people who will naturally gravitate towards more familiar areas. But of course I have to try and communicate the value of my research as best I can.

Your second point is really interesting. I have quite low self-esteem so I think I vacillate between thinking I'm doing really well (due to this sort of praise) and thinking I'm totally uncompetitive and will never get anywhere. I haven't quite found the balance and it does take a mental toll. I am working on not getting validation from external sources but it seems hard in a field like academia. In any case, I would certainly want to avoid falling into the trap of having a superiority complex and thinking I'm above it all. That sounds like a miserable way to live your life.

I'm glad that you think it's early for worrying. It's nice to have that outside perspective. When you keep receiving rejection after rejection, it can feel like you've been at it for a lot longer than you have. I will re-consider some options this weekend.

Thread: Pronouncing difficult (and not so difficult) names

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31-Jan-19, 08:58
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Yes, all the time. I try to find out from trusted senior colleagues about some of the more difficult names!

Thread: Feeling totally defeated

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31-Jan-19, 08:57
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Hi Tudor_Queen, thanks for your encouragement. I do appreciate it. I really hope to find something soon but it's good to keep remembering everything I've achieved so far (academically and otherwise).

Thread: Feeling totally defeated

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31-Jan-19, 08:55
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Quote From bewildered:
I set parameters for the academic job search - how long I was willing to give it, what sorts of jobs I was prepared to apply for and where I was willing to move to rather than applying for everything advertised, when I knew deep down that some jobs/locations would make me miserable. The conversation with my then partner added further constraints. I then developed plan B and C for non-academic job searches and started to implement them.


Hi bewildered, thanks for your post. I have set parameters of sorts, in that I have had to restrict myself to UK jobs for personal reasons, and I've not applied for that anything that I wouldn't be happy to get. I didn't see the point in working so hard and then being miserable, as you say. I thought maybe I was being too 'picky' but your advice makes me feel better. I haven't given myself an end date though. How long did you give yourself to find an academic job, and when did you implement plans B/C?

I don't know if this is the same for you, but 'industry' jobs in my field are really hard to come by and super competitive (and badly paid) as well. I decided not to apply for these jobs because there are doze of people who really want them and it felt insulting to regard them as 'second-best'.

I think I'm just really scared that I won't get anything. I can't even get feedback so I'm constantly wondering if something's wrong with my applications. It's hard to keep believing people when they say 'chin up' etc.

Thread: Feeling totally defeated

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30-Jan-19, 16:53
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Since summer 2018 (after graduating and then maternity leave). I know there are others that have been looking for longer. I guess it just feels like it's been ages even if it hasn't.

My subject is really niche and there aren't many opportunities (though I know that's pretty much the case for everyone). Again, I know how slim the chances are but I honestly thought I was in with a good chance but maybe my CV isn't as strong as I thought. I have built up (what I think is) a good and fairly prestigious network of supporters. My supervisor especially thinks I'm a superstar and has been an amazing advocate. I'm not sure what else I can do (except keep going I suppose).

Thread: Feeling totally defeated

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30-Jan-19, 16:10
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I'm just posting here to vent. I'm feeling pretty miserable and I don't really have any friends in academia to talk to.

I just received yet another postdoc rejection and am starting to think I'll never get anything and that all my hard work has been pointless. Everyone keeps saying just keep going, there's light at the end of the tunnel etc. but I also know the job market is insanely tough and there are hundreds of candidates for every position.

I feel like a naive idiot for actually thinking I'd get a job. I have articles, prizes, grants and a PhD from the one of the best universities in the world. I felt really hopeful after graduating and now I feel like it was for nothing. I feel like a failure.

The fellowship I just got rejected from was one of my best chances. I worked so hard on my application and had great references. When I look at who has won it before, I really felt like I had a great chance. I guess not.

I'll keep going because what else am I going to do. I'm just really upset and needed to get this off my chest. If anyone has any good advice for continuing through this soul-destroying process, I'm all ears.

Thread: Postdoc application misery...

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08-Nov-18, 11:06
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Thank you for your kind words :) I already feel better with all of this encouragement. I will keep searching and hoping...

And if there are any other prospective post-docs out there, good luck with your search!

Thread: Postdoc application misery...

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07-Nov-18, 12:22
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Thanks, Tudor_Queen. It's a great suggestion but I'm actually working as a part-time research assistant now. It's pretty meagre pay as it's only one day a week and I find the topic very boring but at least it's something relevant on my CV so it could be a lot worse.

My colleague who finished the PhD at the same time as me was basically given a post-doc at our institution (there was no advert for the post) because his research interests align closely with the dept head. I guess I'm just feeling a little bitter that I have to slog through all of these applications...

Yes, hopefully something will come through and I can pursue my own research topic!
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